It is all about me!

you have nothign to prove, except theorems

I am not sure what music would be appropriate for this post. Smashing Pumpkins comes to mind….
My personal (women) life is completely falling apart. We are talking about just one person here but the event has been quite thought-provoquing. I am hurt too but it is somewhere inside of me (but not deep) and it hasn’t come to the surface yet.

Provoqued by the events of the last few weeks, I have come to realize several things:

• I am an immature bastard
• I am really out of physical shape

There isn’t anyone to blame really…. When times are tough it is important to go back to my core values. After some introspective thought I have decided to take the following actions:

1. Stop playing around with cigarettes — never touch another cigarette in my life.
2. Go back to Wing-Chun and practice in a physically intense fashion.

This is probably going to increase my stress levels but it is good in the long-run. The regular wing chun schedule brings a rhythm to one’s life that is very positive. I will have to do more late night work for school. I should probably quit going to the extra classes just for fun. Where is the limit? I will still go to QFT2 and the Standart Model class though - that is not early in the morning and it is good for general culture. We’ll see.

I kind of feel like writing too…. I should do that for sure. Writing helps with maturity.

There is this interesting story in the Guardian. This is really where things are headed… if you know your stuff of course.

I always wanted to be a h!cker but I quit when I realized it will involve a lot of work and learning.
It kind of makes me want to switch back to linux though - and have everything encrypted.

Also it makes me want to write a short fiction story in this thematic. We’ll see.

It happens.
I really should stop smoking cigarettes though. It brings me nothing good - except the nicotine high of course.

I think I am reaching a high point in my life. Yesterday I came home early-on in the day and I had the entire house to myself. I moved a lamp next to the couch in the living room and lied down in a comfortable position. I had a coffee and some Toblerone on the table. The perfect time to read about General Relativity in peace and quiet. I even got some useful reading done…. good times.
I took a little brake to look out of the window and realized that this is the best point in my life. This is it! It is not about having plenty of chix or money or an X-box or a AMD64 computer. All that I am striving forward is this ultra-chill time by myself reading something interesting.
This book is amazing. It captivates my attention and at the same time has all the mathematical goodness with little unpleasant formalism. The good part is that 80% of the book comes from this arXiv paper that is freely available.
I guess the times were too chill because I eventually fell asleep on the couch….
This is why I am repeating the procedure today but on the desk. Way to go manifolds and curvature!

Oh and the music playing was Bedouin Soundclash - Sounding a Mosaic. Go and get it is proper good stuff yo!

I am quite proud of my windows accomplishements of last week. I had 2 HDs plugged into my computer. They were both plugged-in on the same IDE channel:
IDE0 Master: 30G disk with music on it (recognized as C:\)
IDE0 Slave: 40G disk with \WINDOWS and everything else on it. (D:\)
There is no problem for WINDOWS being on drive other than C:\ so the setup worked fine. When installing though, the ACTIVE DRIVE is defined as the C:\ drive. The active drive is the first thing that gets read when the computer boots. The boot process goes on the ACTIVE DRIVE and reads the file boot.ini and runs the program ntldr which tells them where the BOOT DRIVE (the one with windows on it) lives.
The 30G drive was making a lot of noise so I took it out of the computer to sell to someone. The computer then refuses to boot. Oh no! what do I do?!!!
But after some google searching and using the Windows XP install CD in Repair Console Mode I managed to get things to work.

copy e:\i386\ntldr c:\
copy e:\i386\ntdetect.com c:\
attrib -H c:\boot.ini
attrib -S c:\boot.ini
attrib -R c:\boot.ini
delete c:\boot.ini
bootcfg /rebuild

The first two lines copy the necessary files form the XP cd. The last command searches the drive for a windows installation and makes a boot.ini file that points to it. We also make sue that there is no old boot.ini file. Apparently you can add the boot option “/fastdetect” but I am not sure what that does exactly.

Then there was the colorful windows boot logo…..